The Drive Across Town

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Hair combed out into a big afro tied with a black hair band with a matching floral accessory. For jewellery; gold loop earrings, a gold box chain necklace, a rose gold-tone white ceramic bracelet watch and gold bangles. Cute top; white sleeveless with black embroidery on the collars – falling to hip length, black fitting pants with a faux leather strip on the side, four-inch black pointed pumps. Face makeup, a light face power for a matte finish, mascara – heavy on the eyes more than usual, chocolate coloured lip gloss and a dub of IN2U perfume and I am party ready. I pick my black full length coat and a clutch purse and step out the door. It is 10:35pm and in a few minutes we will be saying good-bye to the year 2016.

In the car driving across town, I start humming to a song on the radio. I had heard this song for the first time at Christmas when my cousins played it over and over again. We danced to it  – enjoyed its catchy beat and uplifting lyrics.

Naamwogopa Mungu Pekee,

wanadam’ kija kuntafash naomba Mungu Ntetee,

maneno yao yasiniumize nfanye sugu wewe.
Wakitry kuntisha naomba nisitetemeke.
I know you love me, know you love me
So I Don’t fear Nobody But You
I know you love me know you love me Nisitetemeke

~ Mungu Pekee

It talks about being fearless except for the fear of God and trusting that when things get tough you can count on His support not to be shaken. I hum to it some more, drum my fingers on the steering wheel; bob my head to it – acknowledging its truth. And as I do this I reflect on the year that is ending. In summary I experienced the good, the bad and the perplexing. And survived it, but not without transforming into a sturdy version of myself.

The beauty of your life is that you get to create it in any way you want. But in order to create the sort of life that feels truly fulfilling and deeply aligned in every way, life will always require you to let go of something before the next thing is in sight ~ Leah Cox

Still driving on, I resolve that when the clock strikes at mid-night, one major theme that will weave through 2017 will be one of letting go. Letting go of my grip on things that I have to release, in an attempt to change my posture from fear to faith – surrendering to the great I AM.

“When discomfort arises in our lives it is counterintuitive to do nothing, but not all struggle is a question to be answered. If we view life as a cycle of tension and release, being in a period of tension isn’t that bad because it’s promised to be followed by a period of release. Like a Chinese finger trap, the harder we try to get away from the bad things in our lives, the tighter their hold on us becomes. When we surrender to reality instead of wrestling with it, it frees up our energy to be used in better ways.” ~Holly Niederhofer.

When something causes more anguish or pain than happiness, it’s a beaming neon sign that it’s time to give it up. When it comes to deciding to quit, do what feels like being set free – like a kite blowing easily in the wind. That feeling of freedom is one of the biggest signals that you are making the right decision. You may lose your pride, money, a dream that you’ve held on to, but in the long run, the beautiful tapestry that is your life will emerge.

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave behind the moments of life that have finished. ~ by Paulo Coelho

Half an hour later, after several other songs played on the radio, I arrive at my destination still humming to the ‘Mungu Pekee’ song. It has gained meaning during my drive across town. I get out of my car feeling up beat and determined to face the new year with courage and optimism.

Naamwogopa Mungu Pekee,

wanadam’ kija kuntafash naomba Mungu Ntetee,

maneno yao yasiniumize nfanye sugu wewe.
Wakitry kuntisha naomba nisitetemeke.
I know you love me, know you love me
So I Don’t fear Nobody But You
I know you love me know you love me Nisitetemeke

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2 thoughts on “The Drive Across Town

  1. Hi Pauline,
    You made my day with laughter all the way to bed. This is a very professional creative writing. I followed you is my thought flow until you came to your destination, seeing you through from the way you are dressed from head to toe and sharing with you the song- beautiful praise and worship song to our God. Nothing to fear in the year 2017. We lay all our burdens to the Lord and He will give us rest. Amen!

    Pastor Eunice

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    1. Pastor Eunice, you make me laugh too. 😀 This is exactly what happened. One my drive back home at the dawn of the new year, my perspective had shifted. I felt a freedom I had not had in a long time. Happy New Year!

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